mercy or hardness

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I had this moment this morning as I was reading Romans. I have been reading it in the Mirror translation – which I really really like, and as I was reading chapter 9 of Romans this verse hit me in a new way.

The same act of mercy that He willingly bestows on everyone,  may bless the one and harden the heart of the other.  Romans 9:18

Read that again.                                                          thXI3TRI5K

and one more time.

Are you catching the same thing I did or am?

How often have we been told God blesses who he wants and hardens the heart of who he wants.

Does that sound like a God who can only give life ? That can only give good and perfect gifts to his children?

Wouldn’t that make God an angry God picking and choosing who he like and doesn’t like ?

The  SAME ACT of MERCY that he WILLINGLY bestows on EVERYONE, may bless the one and harden the heart of the other.

Is it possible that it is in how we receive the mercy – which is the gift ?

He gives us mercy and by receiving his mercy, we see his blessings.

He gives us mercy and we reject it, which causes my heart to become hardened, bitter and like stone.

Could it be that God is and always will be loving, but it is in how we receive his mercy ?

For example: I do something I know is wrong, but God’s mercy is being poured down over me and I begin the process of repentance, forgiveness and blessings.

I do something I know is wrong, God’s mercy is being poured out, but I think I know better, I find excuses, and do not seek forgiveness, which leads to bitterness and hardness of heart .

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I don’t think God is out to harden anyone’s heart – He is always bestowing mercy – but how we handle or receive that mercy ….

So how are you receiving His mercy today ?

Are you feeling blessed or hardened ?

 

day 27

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last night was one of those nights where I saw every hour on the clock. (remind me to never take advil sinus again). however every time I looked at the clock (after I cried a little) I began to pray.

I prayed for people I know that are hurting. I prayed that I would grow in deeper relationship with God. I prayed that our school of prayer this weekend would be filled with the presence of the Holy Spirit.

I prayed. for whatever came to my mind.

I finally got up, 2 hours earlier than usual, pretty much knowing that God was drawing me to my little corner chair by the window to spend time with Him.  sometimes the only time he can get0e065feebcb4e428e3f85c86eb459274 our attention is time we can’t sleep. hmmm…

I turned to psalm 27, as I am reading them day by day as prayer, and just soaked up what He was offering. when God is pouring something out – drink it up. when He is offering food – eat it all.

a little side note – In the beginning was the Word..the Word became flesh..you know the verses. now fast forward to Jesus telling us to eat His body and drink his blood. If He was/is the Word become flesh – when I eat His flesh I am eating the Word – which means the bible. So I am daily talking communion as I eat and drink His word. (that one was free)

back to psalm 27 – let these verses sink deep into your spirit – and drink up

The Lord is my revelation-light

Here’s the one thing that I crave from God, the one thing I seek above all else

I want the privilege of living with Him every moment in His house, finding the sweet loveliness of His face

filled with awe, delighting in His glory and grace

I want to live my life so close to Him that He takes pleasure in my every prayer

be entwined as one with the Lord

 

this is our food today – on day 27 – to crave God

when was the last time you just wanted to be with God because He was God ?

I think we want to be with Him so He can fix all our problems – but what if ….

what if I was meant to crave him and live so close to Him that my prayers are always reflecting His glory and grace ?

what if He keeps us awake all night to just be with Him ?

not spending time with God doesn’t hurt him – it hurts us.

it keeps us in our little bubble eating on things we should be eating

so today – change your diet.

on day 27 I am asking you to take time and just focus on Him.

on day 27 I am praying that you will crave Him

on day 27 I am praying for you

 

share. {five minute Friday}

How often do we share ?

Not just things because I will always share a cup of coffee with you – but how often do we share our lives ? Our hopes,  dreams, prayers. how much do we really share ?

Sometimes we share to much or we share to little.

I was able to share my story with a group of wonderful ladies the other day, and it really helped me to see – how much God has shared with me.

Sharing our story helps us to see what and how much God is constantly sharing with us.

This morning as I was reading Psalm 23 from the passion translation, I was struck with how     b51f086cf08ddd936ed0cc8b6b825e43much God shares with us.

He shares His love, his time, his wisdom, His breath, His strength.

There will never be a time that He isn’t with you – He is constantly sharing His presence with us

He shares His rest, His heart, His songs

His unfailing love and goodness will be my constant companion – I’ll never be lonely because He is always there

So today I want to share with you – just how much God loves you, how much He has for you

He wants to share His love and His goodness with you

He wants to share His rest and His life with you

I think it is time that we begin to share back with God

 

 

 

 

fleece

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when I think of a fleece I have to admit my first thought is a jacket. a warm toasty ‘north face’ jacket. but that isn’t the fleece I am feeling today. in fact, I don’t feel very warm at all.
I feel kinda – well – maybe frozen ?

almost as if I am in a crisis of what fleece to wear today –

I just read about prayer fleeces. and it would be great if it was just a warm blanket that you put over yourself while you were praying to keep warm. but that isn’t it.

today, for me, I feel like I am a prayer fleece.

the bible talks of Gideon placing a fleece on the threshing floor and if God does something to it, then the prayer was answered or you did what you were praying for – it was a sign of answered prayer.

I am laying things down on the threshing floor today – and I have no idea.  I need answers or direction or repentance or all of it because I am just not sure what is next or how to get from here to there. I can see it – I can feel it. I just don’t know how to get it. I need a sign or a word or something.

knowing that we do not chase signs, but choose God – there are times when our prayer needs to turn into a fleece –

like when we felt to change the front room of City Gate into a prayer café, we through out a fleece sharing the dream. what happened is that people started donating tables for the café and the vision is taking off. so we weren’t chasing signs, but we needed to act on the vision in a way that confirmed an answer ? does that make sense ?

so today in praying I was asking or telling God, I don’t even know what to fleece – or I would put it out there – I told Him I felt like I was the fleece – throwing myself out there on the floor –
and in doing that seeking Him, not a sign, not a dream but seeking Him as to what I am to do or give or be

sometimes we use a fleece the wrong way – to get an answer changed.  if God has already given you a revelation – don’t try to fleece your way out of it. that is not going to end well for you.

check your motives and make sure they aren’t selfish – wanting fleshly desires

accept the answer you receive and don’t question it – meaning if God has already told you, and you are still trying to get a different answer because your flesh wants something else

George Meuller once said that we are to work really hard at what God has called us to, but do not trust in our work, trust in God. to pray like it depends on God but work like it depends on you.

so today in my fleece crisis – I am asking – what haven’t I been working at that I should, what have you called me to that I am not doing – where am I trusting in the outcome and not in Him –

I am my own fleece

I’m back !

Hey my friends I have missed you –
I was in a season where I needed to lay down writing to just be with my Father God –
I have been studying and learning many things, and feeling stretched and pulled, all in a good way for this new year.
I guess I took a little vacation over the end of 2014
But I clearly heard God tell me that it is time to step out –
What was hidden and silent will now be seen and heard –                              
it’s a year of releasing the things I (God) have spoken to you –
vision will now be released to be accomplished –
new vision is coming –
where there was substitution there will be transformation
it’s time to step out, act, speak and declare-
vacation is over –

I think we all get in a little slump now and then. We get comfortable with our daily lives and then all of a sudden we realize we have been going about our daily lives with out prayer, reading our bible or even spending a moment with Jesus.

We find ourselves finding joy in substitutes things, people and places, and now being filled with the joy of the Lord which transforms us.

How can you tell ?

It that person, place or thing is removed – do you still have joy ? Priscilla Shirer says it like this in her book “Life Interrupted” : “A good way to determine this is to see how you  respond to a divine intervention, especially one that costs you something you don’t want to part with (which many of them do) Will you go with God wherever he is calling you ?

One choice holds joy, transformation and the promises and protection of God – the other- not so much.

So as with everything in this journey – you always get to choose
your way or the ‘higher way’

I know this – vacation is over

blessings my friends and I would love to hear from you!
kim

creamy lentil soup

I made this delish soup last night for house church, and I must say it was just as good or even better today for lunch. While I was making it, I had to be creative and spontaneous with some of the ingredients. It got me thinking that this is how our life should is. We often don’t have the right ingredients at the right time, but if we just ask God, he always has an ingredient which usually turns out way better than the my original plan. We need to plan and organize, but we also need to keep our ears and heart open to what the God plan is, and we need to quickly walk and do what He tells us.

Creamy Crock Lentil Soup    

1 c. dry lentils
3 or 4 medium carrots – chopped or sliced

4 stalks of celery – chopped (I use the whole thing..leaf part and all)

1 med or large onion – chopped
6 cups water
2 cans of evaporated milk
4-6 teaspoons of beef boullion granules


lots of seasonings – basically I use lots of crazy janes’ mixed up salt, pepper, garlic salt, parsley and chives




throw it all in the crock pot and cook low 6-8 hours




I added cornstarch to thicken slightly – but you don’t have to

the GPS

Did you ever notice that the GPS sometimes doesn’t quite take the right road?
Or the road less traveled ? Or the road that has way to much traffic ?


I have been noticing that my husband has been talking to the GPS a lot lately. Similar to how men talk to the football coaches through the TV ?  The GPS or the TV cannot hear you.
 
As we are driving,  following the friendly voice, my husband talks back to it. “Why are you going that way? I can’t believe you are doing that ? There is way to much traffic that way!”
I sit and listen. Smile to myself. Then, I just have to. I have to say something.
Babe, you don’t have to follow the GPS. She doesn’t have authority over you.
He just does his ‘I’m not gonna let you see me smile, smile’.

I know there is a lesson in there somewhere.

Do we listen to outside voices to navigate our way ?
Do we give to much authority to those who shouldn’t have it ?
Have we become a group of people that just sit and do what the friendly voice tells us to do ?

I was just reading an article by Charisma Magazine from the Barna group, how this generation (us and we) have the most bibles, but don’t read them or even pick them up.

If we aren’t reading from the Word, is it really easy to be led away by a friendly voice. The route seems correct, and it is so easy to just follow. But is that really the way ?

Bare with this analogy please, but if I asked you why you are going that way or why did you do that – would you answer be – the GPS said to.

My point is this – are we following the crowd (GPS) or following Jesus ?

Do we put too much into what the GPS (Greatest Preachers Syndrome) and what they tell us to do.

We have this great gift of the Word, we have this great gift given to us and yet we seem to follow the other voices.

We have this amazing internal light and life filled Holy Spirit guidance, but we don’t seem to know how to follow its voice, because we are so consumed with the voice of the external system.

What voice or voices are you following ?

Long – {five minute friday}

Long
what do you think about when you hear the word long.
I think of length
length of time, a long time.
I think of a journey, a long road
I think the winter seems long.
I think of days. sometimes the days are very long, but the time seems very short.
my girls are only 23 and 19, but then holy moly they are 23 and 19 –
where did the time go and that really hasn’t been very long at all
lately when I think of long, I think of my mom.
it’s been a very long time.
since I have seen her face, heard her giggle,
held her hand, sat on the porch in the sunlight.
it’s been long since I had coffee with her.
it was a long, very long illness
but a very short time we walked through it.
I am so thankful that God’s love is long
I would have not been able to walk this road, this very long
road of grief mixed with peace without him.
There are some days that I think every moment is long.
or when talking with someone, that this conversation is long –
but it seems in the larger scale of life and love
that the time is really short.
so my prayer for you is to not live like you have “long”
live like you have “short”

the devil comes…

…as an angel of light.

the devil comes as an angel of light.

And it is no wonder, for Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light;  (2 Corinthians 11:14)

this morning I was pondering ‘who in the world would we know the devil as an angel of light?’

we don’t want to have mass hysteria and seeing devils behind every door, but is there a way to know what is the devil’s light and what is True Light.

so I had these thoughts: ( and take these as me being a mom, friend, mentor)

do you notice that all your situations seem to end up the same ?
do you notice that the guy you are now dating is turning out to be just like the wrong guy you were dating?
do you notice that your relationships seem to be to all the same type of person ?
do you notice that you keep picking the wrong thing?

is it possible that: There is a way that seems right to a man and appears straight before him, but at the end of it is the way of death. (proverbs 16:25)

is it possible that when it seems right to me, and looks good – that it really could be the enemy trying to keep me from the real right way ?

is it possible that the angel of light that is before me is the path that really produces darkness?

how can I know? God is never going to take you from a bad situation and put you in another bad situation.

A man’s mind plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps and makes them sure. (proverbs 16:9)
so is it possible that if my steps aren’t sure – I am walking my own plan and not His?
could it be that I am walking in the masquerade of light ?

this is really to be a encouragement – not a scare tactic. however, I think we are so easily swayed away from truth that we can really live outside of our relationship with Jesus, and then we are dazed and confused when the relationship we are not in, is just like the last one. why? we are walking in our own plans.

so maybe the devil as an angel of light – is really because of my lack of relationship with God ?

if I am not totally reliant on the Spirit of the Living God for all my needs, decisions and relationship then I will probably be making a lot of decisions claiming they are from God, but they are really from me. then trying to get God to respond to me and what I think should happen. hmmm.

still pondering.

Five Minute Friday {new}

the thing about new is,  it’s new.
when I hear the word new, I think of God. He is making all things new. He is new every morning. He has new wine that must go in new wine skins.
the thing about new is, it’s only new for that moment.
think about it.
when you open a bottle of new wine, it now becomes old because you cannot re-cork it.
which means, you have to use the new before it becomes stale and old.
kinda like how we need to live our lives in the newness of His presence every day.
we can’t live off yesterday’s new, because now that is the old.
Or think of the manna He gave new, every morning.  It was only good for that day.
hmmm.
so new, is only new for that moment.
maybe this is what dwelling and abiding look like.
eating and drinking of the new.
I want to live in the new.
new wine, new word, new revelation – every moment of every day enjoying the newness of His presence.